I remember a year ago when mom was alive…..
I did not know she would suddenly with no obvious warning signs, die 3 weeks later. Would I have done anything different? Probably not as I shared the day with her at an entertainment facility which she loved.
There was a situation tonight which occurred that put a lot of pressure on me. If any of you have lost a mom, you know that it takes time to sort out your emotions, memories and things connected to her. How can a person understand the mixed emotions one feels on the 1st Mothers Day after a mother dies, unless they have experienced this.
Not all men and women are close to their mom’s and vice versa. When you lose a mom, you lose the one person who looked out for you, made sure you weren’t hungry & gave you those countless lectures about life.
I am an adult now and yet somehow still feel like a little girl who needs her mom whether it be for positive reinforcement or for those lectures she was so good at. My mom was a Gemini and was never at a loss for words.
I do remember the last thing I said to my mom as they wheeled her into life threatening surgery. I kissed her on the forehead and told her I loved her. I never spoke to my mom again. She died within 24 hours.
If your mom is alive, tell her she is special. I miss my mom & will continue to do so for a long time.
It is my turn to be the Matriarch and a grandma. Still have difficulty hearing grandma as this title was reserved for my mother. So, my daughter came up with another title. I will be GG to my precious Connor.
My mom would have doted on Connor. It’s so sad she did not see him. He was born 6 months after she died.
Tonight I feel a sadness because I cannot take my mom out to her favourite entertainment facility. For that matter, I can’t share Mothers Day with dad because he is gone to, a few short months after mom.
If you are grieving this Mothers Day – you are not alone.