The last couple of weeks have been difficult for me and other members of the family. The sudden loss of my mom came with not much warning.
Some people have told me I am in profound shock because I was not able to cry at the visitation, service, or at the cemetery.
I cried before that. I cried as I held my mother in my arms the morning before I called the ambulance. I cried when the surgeon came out and told us she may not live through the surgery which should have saved her life. I cried when my mother did not wake up from surgery. I cried as she was dying. I cried so much.
I will continue blogging about the cards but I have to wonder why I did not see this tragic situation in my own readings. The Empress appeared several times. I knew there would be issues around motherhood or mothering but since dad was ill I thought the Empress meant I would help my mom out. When you take care of someone you are ‘mothering’. The only reading which even slightly hinted at any shattering experience would have been the Celtic Cross I did about a month ago.
The 5 of cups was the crossing card. The Tower appeared in the immediate future. The Empress fell in the others spot and the Emperor as the outcome card.
My posts will continue. I find it very meaningful to share some of my knowledge and I am not shy about sharing my own personal feelings about things which occur in my life.
I give my heart a voice through blogging.